It is difficult to be sad and useful at the same time.

One of the easiest ruts to get stuck in, and the hardest to get out of, is depression. I don't write about this much, or I try not to, because I like to pretend it doesn't exist. When I was very young, maybe six years old, I had severe anxiety. So for a time I…

Conflict – Hiatus?

I am finding myself in conflict when it comes to posting on my blog. I struggled my way through NaBloPoMo, and at the end of the day, had a lot of fun with most of those posts. It was sometimes hard to remember to write daily, but once I was writing, I was usually glad…

Left Field

Not all surprises are good surprises. Sometimes, a matter of days before Thanksgiving, you're told that your aunt has stomach cancer. It just comes up out of left field and then its there staring you in the face, and you're there staring it in the face, unable to react and not exactly sure what to…

Apathy is Exhausting

Yes, apathy is exhausting. Why? I think it's because whether its conscious or not, it takes a lot of energy to not care. Not caring is inhuman. That may not be what you want to hear when you're so tired of things not working out that you've hit apathy. But it's true. It is in…

Mourning

I guess I should start this out by saying that I haven't recently lost anyone dear to me, and that I am not currently in mourning. It's just something I've been thinking about lately, as dark as that sounds, and thought that it might be interesting to write about. See, death is a big deal.…