Juggling Water

Some days I swear I'm just sitting here juggling water, if you can imagine that. I imagine that. I imagine all of it just washing over my hands while I wonder why I tried to juggle it in the first place. Stupid. Before getting married I was always afraid that I would be bad at…

November 28th

Thoughts on a Monday... I've only got nine days until Davis leaves Florida and I'm not dealing with that well.  I've stretched myself too thin socially in the past couple of weeks and it's really taken its toll. I need a recharge.  My sister had a baby. Did I mention that? Also I started back…

Worries

The things we spend our lives worrying about probably say a lot about us. It says where our priorities are. It says who we love. It says what we want. It says what we're most afraid of. It says everything. I worry about my family and how little they understand each other. I don't mean…

Keeping the Darkness at Bay

So many things in life come in circles, in cycles, in waves. They come and they go with a relentless ebb and flow that we can sometimes predict but rarely control. Our lives have these seasons, and we can either fight them or we can grow with them. The waves that I fight are the…

It is difficult to be sad and useful at the same time.

One of the easiest ruts to get stuck in, and the hardest to get out of, is depression. I don't write about this much, or I try not to, because I like to pretend it doesn't exist. When I was very young, maybe six years old, I had severe anxiety. So for a time I…

The Christmas Spirit

"Everyone loves Christmas!" they say. What's not to love? People get so easily swept up in the fanfare and warm-fuzzies. I think people fail to realize that for some people Christmas can be the hardest time of the year. Santa Claus was never a part of what we were told about Christmas as children. We…

Horror Hospital

I cannot stand being in hospitals. I know that that's irrational, that hospitals are places that heal people and help them. Yet of the many experiences I've had of hospitals, I can't help but feel that hospitals are terrible places. My first experience of hospitals wasn't so bad. I'd be in a hospital every other…