Dig In

Do you ever have the inexplicable desire to take up a handful of soil and just rub it between your hands and really feel it? Or to stand knee deep in water that’s far too cold? Or to climb a tree just to feel the bark against your hands? Or to stand on the edge of a precipice on a windy gusty night?

So much of the time I feel that I’m just blindly following time through the day. I pay attention to very little and I’m only concerned with what I’ve already decided is important. I don’t give the day a chance. If it wasn’t on my To Do list, then regardless of what happens around me, I don’t pay attention. I hate that. I didn’t used to be that way.

I used to see everything, and feel everything, smell everything – sense everything. I paid attention to every little insignificant thing, and I could see the biggest picture because of it. But I allowed life to get in the way. No, not even that. I forced those details out of my life to make room for normalcy and regularity. What was I thinking?

Now I want it back. I want to dive into each day of my life sensing with all my senses. I want to remember something because I have it captured in every way. I can smell it – I can feel it – I can taste it – I can hear it. This is the only way to see everything. I want that back. And I try to get it back, but it’s much like the imagination of a child – once you let it go for some time, it’s awful hard to truly get it back.

So I want to dig my hands in. I want to force myself to see and hear and taste and feel. I’ll be doing it a little bit at a time, but if you see a young woman climbing trees with her ankles dripping and clods of dirt in her hands on a windy day, at least you’ll know why.

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2 thoughts on “Dig In

  1. Smashing post. I couldn’t agree more. Irrespective of the weather I try to take the dog for a walk in the fantastic countryside that surrounds us and take time and pleasure in looking around seeing what’s there, catch the scent of the countryside and listen to the birdsong. I watched some guys cutting back a tree not too long ago and remember thinking what a fantastic job that must be – climbing trees for a living. I’m always banging on about getting your nose out of your smart phone, take time away from seeing how many “likes” you have and just spending time enjoying your surroundings.

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    1. I’m so glad there are people out there like you! Let’s ditch the smart phones and climb some trees. People don’t know what they’re missing!

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